Amazing things are afoot at the Circle K, Ted.

This could turn into a long post, but I'm realizing that I'm not prepared to write about it in full yet, so I'm just going to regurgitate what it is that I feel I can say.

 

Something big is afoot at the Circle K, Ted.  (If you email me the movie reference, I'll give you a gold star!!)

I am the Circle K.

 

I go through these phases where everything is all a bunch of shit and then for a few months everything is golden.  While this sounds like bi-polarism, I think it's more likely a labor of myself.  Meaning, when a woman pushes a child out into the world, the baby moves down a bunch and then goes back up a little - 2 steps forward, 1 step back.  Eventually, a new person emerges after a lot of work and a lot of back and forth.  Tis the same with myself.

 

I've realized a few things in the last few days:

1. I don't have to good at everything.  I can try things (or not) just for the fun and experience of it - I don't have to make everything an endeavor.
2. It's okay for me to only do one thing well a day.  For example, Saturday morning, I held down a deck chair really well.  Yesterday, I did laundry to the best of my ability, today I'm spinning well in the morning and will hang out with my best friend this afternoon the very best way I can.  For everything else that comes up, good enough is good enough.
3. I don't have to be incredibly productive every day of my life.
4. It's likely that I need to change my definition of "productive."
5. Hanging out with my kids *is* doing something.

Things are moving, things are changing, things are shifting.  I'm shedding the scales of unwanted thinking and opening up to the beautiful plumage of acceptance.

 

Now way?  Way!